*smiles* Wow, your really smart aren’t ya? I’m glad you decided to talk to me.
I gotta say though, as much as emotional can be a burden, their also really special. You can;t go through life avoidin’ them because then your not really livin’ are ya? I know you have your reasons for being the way you are. But don’t forget to let yourslef open up every once and a while. It’s healthy to be a lil unstable sometimes.
Well…thank you… but you were the one who decided to talk to me…all I did was say hi to no one in particular. I’m really happy that we talked though…it was…nice…it seems that I like talking…
I’m afraid that for me it is in fact never healthy to be unstable…but…I’ll try to be a little more…open…and stuff…it couldn’t really hurt…
Why’s that? If it keeps from hurtin’ people.
It wouldn’t work for you because you have far too many emotional obligations to people…I don’t. You have lots of friends and a girl friend. None of them would be too happy if you shut down, it wouldn’t be fair to them.
I only have…Meeko, Tabitha and Lilo whom I have emotional obligations too…ad Arista sort of. They all expect me to be the way I am though… which is good because it’s the best way I can be.
Avoid feelings altogether? I’m not sure how that’s possible…
Believe me, Sal, I’ve had my unstable moments. I’ve scared myself on how far my jealous can push me…*stops himself before he says too much*
*raises an eyebrow, but decides not to pry* I know what unstable feels like… I don’t like feeling that out of control…which is why I try not to feel…
…I wouldn’t recommend it…not for you…
Well, I envy your self control..or emotional incapacity?
Sometimes I tend to go over board when things bother me.
Admittedly it’s probably the first…I don’t handle feelings well so I avoid them altogether. It’s better for everyone that way…
I suppose I sort of envy your ability to go over board. When You do it usually seems sort of heroic as opposed to emotionally unstable…
Oh, heh, right. That’s more of an american thing, huh?
Um. What I mean is it’s pretty child-like to send anonymous messages talkin’ crap about people. It just makes me sick.
It is pretty child-like, usually it makes me just roll my eyes and maybe sigh in exasperation. I try not to get too worked up over it…or anything for that matter.
It seems everyone is gettin’ one of those.
You’d think we’d be over this middle school shit by now.
Yeah…um…I totally agree…uh…
…what’s a “middle school?”
Really? I used to think that too. That people would say all this nice things out of courtesy but really they were talkin’ shit behind your back. That was mostly the case back home. But here it’s a bit better I think, except for those disgustingly rude anons
The mean one sent to Bobbi you mean? I’m sorry to see that happened…it’s such a baseless statement…
…I really hope she doesn’t take it to heart…
It is pretty remarkable. Where I come from, it’s pretty much “We love you if you agree with everything we agree with and do everything we do and we everything we want you to be.” It feels good to be surrounded by people that like and accept you for you. Though their are the occasionally ass holes.
That sound’s pretty similar to the way things are at home for me too…not the same, just similar.
I used to feel like everyone was secretly an ass hole…and I still sort of do, but now I see that everyone, even the people who don’t like me, have the capacity to be…good…and good is enough.
*Laughs* Yes, Sally, we do that.
And considerin’ the amount of fan mail I heard ya been gettin’ I’d have to disagree on that last statement.
…aside from the anonymous one though, the only one I got was from Lilo. She’s my best friend so I expect her to care…and I’m pretty sure the anonymous one was from Tabitha…I might have to go investigating.
Anyway, I’ve brought it on myself by hiding and stuff. It’s kind of remarkable though how so many people seem to be so naturally concerned for people around them, even people they don’t really know.